My head is spinning!!

Boy or girl?

In-home daycare or daycare center?

Huggies or Pampers?

Bottle or breast (or both)?

Pacifier or not?

It's hard enough in life trying to make decisions for yourself, but I never knew the mental jog I would get when starting to think about all the choices that have to be made for a child. Most recently, Key and I have been checking out local daycares and such. I feel bad saying this, but it's the truth...I judge every single thing and person when I walk into those place. My mind goes crazy! What's that smell? Who is that person? Why are they wearing pajamas to work? Did they clean that? Do they just let the baby lay there crying? Is this place good enough for my child?

Those are just a few thoughts....

And now I understand why it is hard for parents to leave their child in the arms of another adult and pray that they are safe and being well cared for. I haven't even held my child yet, but this already seems to be an issue. No, no, I'm not saying I'm not going to be working. God knows I need to work for my own sanity and to pay off all those student loans :) It's just hard. And I get it now. I get why people are willing to sacrifice things so they can stay home with their kids. I get why moms and dads have feelings of guilt and anguish over making choices. And I can't imagine it gets any easier. The older they get, the more choices to be had...and then they can give their input.

I know I'm ready...I know I can do this. I just find the whole process fascinating and humbling... and love to share my crazy thoughts.